Welcome to Motherhood

Yesterday I got my first taste of motherhood. Not that I didn't feel like a mom before seeing as everything has been overwhelming..just...well...this is how the day (and night) went. Elijah had a 2pm appointment with the cardiologist and I wanted to go to the chiropractor to see if I could get rid of this perpetual headache I've had. Jake asked if I could bring him lunch and show off the baby to everyone at work and I figured why not. I made the chiropractor appointment for 11:30 and set off to loading Elijah and all the misc goodies in the car at 11. It was at this time we had a melt down. Elijah loves the car...usually. He just screamed. I had to take him out to calm him down and by this time he was all sweaty and he had little ringlets in the back of his head. Once he was quiet we headed out and were a little late to the appointment..but no biggie. Jake's work is right there so we got some Chipotle and headed to see daddy. All the ladies loved him..of course. After lunch Elijah was getting hungry so I figured I would feed him in the car (tinted windows are great!) but Jake suggested feeding him in the cubical next to him b/c that lady was gone. I reluctantly said yes so I wouldn't waste gas. This is 1pm...my appointment is 2pm...oh yeah and remember in my previous blog I discussed the whole nursing issue. Needless to say we ended up with a frustrated mama and an even more frustrated and hungry baby. I left just in time to get to the hospital for his appointment. I figured I had a bottle and I would just feed him while I was waiting. Offices always make you wait right? Wrong. I got there and had some paperwork to fill out so I tried to hold my now screaming baby and a bottle at the same time so he could maybe get some milk all while filling out the paperwork. They ended up calling me back while I was still filling out the paperwork. Of course he did not like being interrupted and screamed at the top of his little lungs while we weighed and measured him. Thankfully I was able to give him most of the bottle while he was getting his EKG and he calmed down. The cardiologist saw him soon after. He was great with him! I was really impressed. I had never worked with him before but would recommend him to anyone. Pretty much we are waiting for another 4 months, getting another echo and then finding out if the VSD, PDA, and PFO close on their own. More then likely the only thing left at 5 months age will be the VSD and that will probably close within the year...we're just going to keep watching. And oh, by the way, double glad for insurance. Paid $30 of a $595 bill. Praise the Lord!
Anyway. Now Elijah was calm and we went to pick up Daddy. We wanted to look at our rocker at Babies R Us and find out if we had to order it or if we needed to pick it up with a truck. While we were there Jake noticed that Elijah was really gassy. He wasn't fussy though. We then went to Costco and by the time we got out Elijah was showing signs of reflux and indigestion. I felt so bad for him b/c I could tell he was in pain. I just wanted to take it all away! How hard it is to see your baby with a grimace on his face. By the time we got home he was crying and fussy. He eventually calmed down...for a season. He slept until about 2 or so and then he didn't really sleep until 11am. I had to keep changing his position, put a warm diaper on his belly, give him gas drops...he was miserable. He kept choking on thick mucous and I had to keep sucking out his nose and mouth. Of course by morning I was exhausted. I think I caught a little cat nap here and there..like maybe 15 minutes! The whole time I felt so bad b/c I know he was uncomfortable. After the 11 am feeding he fell asleep and was a little angel when I went to lunch with my friends from work. He was good for the rest of the day. Of course once we were done with lunch we were back at home in the dark, quiet, cool and familiar house...maybe that's why he was better. Maybe I am forever doomed to stay at home. One thing is for sure...after all that running around I was exhausted and sore. I'm very glad I don't start work tomorrow...I don't think I could physically do it. Thank God for 6 weeks of short term disability! I hope that tonight is a little better than last night...I definitely need some sleep! Of course...he's sleeping now and what am I doing..blogging. Go figure. Oh yeah, and the discouraging thing is that because I fed him a bottle of milk I had made a couple days ago, I have no idea what I ate before I made it so I can't tell what he didn't like..if that's even what it was!
Well, I guess I better post a picture of our little sweetie...can't let you think I have any negative thoughts...I still love my little guy..just a little sleep deprived.