Fighting Boys

There is always something special about boys. Until they break out in a huge brawl. Why are they so crazy?

Jake got out his camera today and started taking some photos. I gotta say, my boys are pretty handsome.

Even my little Molly girl. What a cute puppy, right?

Awe, and the baby.

The tree is still up, and the house a mess...but oh well.

Oh Noah. My little Linus.

And this is where it gets crazy. This will now be known as the Epic New Year's Eve battle. No joke. Why Jake didn't stop them from fighting, I don't know...but instead, he caught it on film (can we even say that anymore?)

And now the next pictures look like mug shots. Eek!

Here they say, we're fine. Just boys.

Sigh.

Sometimes

Sometimes it is just really hard to deal with things. I am on my lunch break. And I just have to get some things out. Do some sharing. I have so many thoughts in my head and feel like I haven't had a time to get them out. Looking back, I can't believe I haven't blogged since November. I guess that's because I started back to work. And now I feel like I really haven't had time for myself, especially since I have been doing all the Christmas shopping and making of things for everyone. Maybe one day I will have some time to do some posts for December. Anyway.

I have to juggle working and pumping and spending time with my husband and kids. I have to battle sleep deprivation. Exhaustion has overcome me. And I hurt. All over. All the time. The depression is making me feel as though I am sinking into quick sand. I live in a house of four little boys. And our toilet is broken. And has been since I "think" May. It can be force flushed with buckets of water causing our bathroom to either smell like an outhouse or the floor to be covered in water. I am drowning.  I miss my family. I am anxious. I am disappointed that I didn't get a job position that would have been a promotion and maybe give me something to look forward to. I feel like I am going backwards. Today I had trouble getting out of bed. I tried. I got out several times. And went back several times. My kids were so great about it. They mostly played with their new toys. They were fed. Oliver I think may be getting a cold. He was very stuffy and just wanted to be held and nursed. I just held him in bed. He makes me feel better. The little things added up today. My lips are chapped and sore. My feet hurt. My eyes are swollen. I can't stop yawning. Oliver has ingrown toenails so his big toes are swollen. They are getting better with some breast milk lotion I made with lavender oil and coconut oil. But I still feel bad for him. I couldn't bring myself to make dinner tonight so we got Chic-fil-a. And they forgot my waffle fries. I didn't have time to go back to get them. In running around for work I poured my breast milk into bottles only to spill it everywhere. I have a lot of milk in the freezer so it really shouldn't matter.  But somehow it does. To top everything off, I went to get my lunch and someone drank my Coke. Now, I realize you shouldn't cry over spilled milk, but honestly. Give a girl a break. All I wanted was my Coke at 4 am to get me through the rest of the shift. So thank you to whoever deprived me of this. Just another downer of the day. 

Christmas

Christmas was so fun this year. The boys had a blast opening all their gifts. I think Christmas Eve at GaGa and Papa's house is their favorite.

Noah got a cool food science set.

Sarah and Eric brought Evelyn

Legos and Paw Patrol stuff.

Virginia got some new toys and new clothes.

Comparing presents.

Cheese!

Jonah got a special bear from Daddy that he named Mr. Tickles. 

Elijah got a University of Michigan football costume.

And the baby says CHEESE! He's 3 months now!

Going to the Grand Canyon

Jimmy, Rebecca and Virginia came to Arizona to visit us and decided that they wanted to see the Grand Canyon. I took Noah, Jonah and Oliver to a friend's birthday party but Jake and Elijah went with them. I think Elijah had fun in the snow.

Visiting Santa

With this being Oliver's first Christmas I really wanted them to be able to see Santa and have a nice picture. Bass Pro Shop always has a nice setup so we took advantage of it. I think the photo came out nice. I love how Jonah has his arm around Noah. He even brought this up to me. He wanted to point out that he had taken the time to be nice to Noah. It had nothing to do with Santa being right there though. LOL.