I have decided to start blogging. I know it's a little outside my element as I am not the best at putting my feelings in print but with the birth of Elijah I feel it's important to keep track of some of the everyday life things for all of the family that is heart wrenchingly far away. He is now 5 days old and I am in love with him. I have to say I have been from the very start when the doctor placed him on my chest, gooey and all. Everything about him fascinates me. I can't help but go over the delivery time and time again because it was such a wonderful experience. Yes there was (and still is) a lot of pain and I was (and am) exhausted but to hold this new creature that is a part of Jake and me is absolutely incredible. I treasure every part of being a mommy. I look back and wish that I had treasured the pregnancy a little more as well. Yes it was miserable near the end but feeling his movements inside of me and knowing that he was safe was amazing. Now I cherish every time that I hold him. I now realize that I am doing some of the things I swore I wouldn't do...like hold him all the time. I can't help it...I just love him so much and want to smother him with kisses. Also, by accident he has slept in the be with us. It's just so easy to fall asleep while feeding him. The first time that I did it I felt so bad...what if I had smothered him! Then I looked at his peaceful face...he's just a sweetie! I have to admit he seems like he sleeps so much better in my arms. He smells so good. We gave him his first bath at home last night. He did not like it. It felt so good to give him his first bath at home. It's something we will never be able to do again...of course there will always be his first TUB bath! I guess I better bring this to a close. I need to take a shower and get a little rest before church. I am very thankful because all of the ladies at church are taking turns bringing us meals. I just haven't been able to do much. Being on my feet brings a lot of pain..sitting for too long does also. I am still having to take pain meds. I didn't realize I would be this sore for this long but I guess when you have a big baby and have that much that needs to be repaired one can only expect some pain. He is worth it though. I am looking down at him right now. He is laying against me on his boppy pillow with one eye just barely open and his mouth in a little smile. It's his pirate face. I hope to capture it on "film" one day so I have record and everybody can see it. It's adorable. Well, that's all for now.
3 comments:
Well I think it's absolutely great that you're starting a blog. Now is the perfect time & with a baby in the home you'll always have something to write about. :-)
Don't think you're taking a long time healing, that's why they give you 6 weeks before you should be expected to do everything again. It hasn't even been a week, sheesh, lady, you're not wonder-woman!
Hee, hee, take it from me. I swore I would NEVER let my baby sleep wih me, but after a few exhausted nights, once you get the hang of nursing while lying on your side, I finally got the rest I needed! (For any nursing tips/encouragement, give me a call - I became an old pro at it!!!) Selah slept with us for the first few months, actually, and had no problem transitioning to her crib in her own room when the time came. I also held her ALL the time, another thing I swore I wouldn't do!!! I even used the Baby Bjorn around the house, and she didn't get spoiled. When she was ready, she let go of me. (In fact, I'm lucky to catch a quick hug as she buzzes by now! Sometimes I miss her clinginess...)
And you're a nurse - you should know how sore and tired you will be!!! ;0) You will reach levels of fatigue you didn't know existed those first few weeks. You took nine months wreaking havoc on your body, it's going to be a long time before you get back to any semblance of normal. (Not to discourage you, but I was sore for the first couple months, not weeks. I was singing the praises of my nurse that made me ice packs out of baby diapers to sleep on.) Between the pain from the delivery and the pain from learning to breastfeed... labor seemed like a breeze in retrospect!!!
It all seems so far away now, though, so cherish it all, even through the pain. The discomfort fades, and you will only have a teeny baby for a few months. (Okay, technically, Elijah was never teeny!) Hold him, snuggle him, kiss him all you want. He'll grow up too fast as it is!!! Follow your mommy instincts and ignore all parenting advice. (Except mine.) All joking aside, no one knows your baby like you do! Enjoy every second. I can't wait to meet him in person!
Oh, and my doctor told me the only people that smother their baby in their bed are generally obese or drunk/high. She said you have a kind of mental radar in your sleep that keeps track of where things are, or else you would always be rolling off the bed!!! Just a thought...
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