Getting Back to Normal

It has taken a bit to get things back to normal. It seems like the first few days after a long trip are spent running around like a crazy person. Laundry, grocery shopping, unpacking, cleaning up...all take precedence over taking a vacation from your vacation. On top of all that Elijah really didn't know what was going on with the time. The time change messed him up a bit. It didn't take long for him to change from AZ time to MI time. He figured it was starting to get dark...time to go to bed (even though it was only 5pm here in AZ). Unfortunately when we got back he felt he should go to bed about 6-7 pm...meaning he then started waking up at 2am. Yeah, not so cool. He's also nursing a lot more than before...every 2-3 hours. He used to go 3-4. That 4 hour stretch was nice b/c it was his afternoon nap time. I could get some stuff done. Now, not so much. Thankfully last night he slept until 5. He woke up again at 7 and unfortunately I had a terrible headache and was nauseous. Icky. I took some medicine and thankfully it went away. I didn't want to spend my last day of maternity leave sick with a migraine...just what I need, right? Sigh...End of maternity leave..back to work tomorrow. No more 24/7 with my two sweetie pies. No more getting dinner done whenever it gets done. No more putting off of things a little later because I have the time. Silly but no more nicely manicured long fingernails. Say hello to rushing around to get dinner on the table so I can eat before I leave for work. Back to a schedule. Double sigh. I have had a lot of trouble dealing with this and as a result Elijah is still not in his crib. I had plans of doing it this week but with the whole time change thing it kind of changed things. Plus I put him in it on Tuesday and he quickly woke up crying. I think he was scared. I held him while we watched a movie...and ended up bawling at the thought of putting him in it again. The past few days have been sad days that I find myself holding him a little longer and a little tighter. I am not quite myself again and have found that a lot of those things I said needed to be done earlier in the posting have taken me a lot longer to get done. I just don't know where to begin and am feeling a little bit lost. I think the thing that gets to me the most is watching his sweet little face while he is asleep. I just can't think of myself leaving it. I also don't want to leave Jake as well. I have become all too familiar with eating a more relaxed dinner, lounging around, and snuggling at night next to him. I am really hoping that the Lord will work out a way that I can go to part time so I can be home more and enjoy being a wife and mother...and maybe work on having some more little ones to be playmates with Elijah. God knows the desire of my heart and I truly believe that it's a Biblical desire and one that He would bless.
The picture is of Elijah with his hands. We find him intertwining them and sucking on them (and his thumb!) all the time now. What a little cutie! His eyes are still very blue...emphasized I'm sure by the blue shirt. I hope he keeps them!