8 Months Old

It's hard to believe it but my babies are 7 months old! What?!?! It is truly mind boggling! They are doing well, despite the fact the Jonah STILL has an ear infection! We are on yet another different antibiotic and are hoping that the third time is a charm. Measurement wise they are both 18 pounds and 26inches long. We are wearing 6-9month and 9month clothes...size 2/3 Pampers. Wow! Noah still just has the bottom 2 teeth and Jonah..well, he's toothless :)  The boys love to play with their big brother and have even started (one at a time) taking a bath with him. Noah enjoys this the best. He SPLASHES like a crazy fish! He is my water boy for sure! Noah enjoys sitting to take the world in..Jonah loves his belly. He scoots around to get wherever he wants and has decided that Elijah's toys are the best...doesn't matter that there are little pieces (YIKES!)

Elijah is doing wonderful at going on the potty ALL DAY LONG! He still wears a pullup/diaper at night but that's okay. In fact, when we went to pick up Jake the other day I wanted him to wear a pull up for the long ride and I was yelled at..."I GO PEE PEE ON THE POTTY! I NO NEED A PAHYUP!" Ok little dude. And yes, he did NOT have an accident...he went on the potty like a big boy! YEAH!

As always...short..sweet..to the point! Later!

Elijah the BIG boy

I am so proud of Elijah. He has been going on the potty for the past few days now. Of course, we have been bribing him to do so. We tried stickers. We tried dum-dums. What worked? Cars. Cars movie cars that is. Elijah pooped on the potty a few days in a row so I gave him a car. When he did it again we took him to the Disney store to find a "the King" car. While there we found a set of larger die cast race cars including "the King", Lightning McQueen, and Chick Hicks. Of course he wanted it. Lightbulb. New deal. Now if he goes on the potty ALL DAY without accident he gets to pick one of the 10 cars in the set. So far its worked. It's amazing what you can do if you put your mind to it. I figure after 10 times we should have a good habit started. I guess we'll see!

QUICK UPDATE

I decided to take the boys on Friday to get a "well baby" check as we have only had 2 of those and only two of their immunizations due to illness. HA! The PA looks in Jonahms ear and says she hates to tell me this but he's got an ear infection. A double ear infection actually...they both do. So after 2 round of Amoxicillin she bumped us to Augmenten so hopefully that works! They didn't even act sick! Allergy type stuff but no fussiness or pulling on ears. Now...they're fussy! Kept Jake up all night! Silly boys.

Other news..Noah has 2 teeth! They came in 5 days apart. I was surprised bc Jonah has been the drooly St Bernard not Noah.

Jonah has been getting around well. He rolls everywhere. Noah stays still so far...but he has mastered the art of sitting pretty well.

Elijah is SOO cute! He told Jake yesterday to chill out. where does he get this stuff.

Better go!

Hmmm.

I am at a Hmmm...stage. I don't really know what to say in my blog. How do you update something reporting your life to others when you feel like so much has gone on you feel like your head has been on spin cycle in the washer? I feel like my thoughts are so disorganized right now...like I have a million, zillion things to think about. Like...

I'm tired. I'm tired of working. I hate saying good-bye to my kids...hate being away from my husband...hate working night shift when my body wants to fall asleep by about 3am. I don't like feeling like a zombie...yet I love my night shift coworkers and everything about night shift (while I'm at work) vs. day shift.

I hate not having a car. I want my car back. I feel stranded. I want to be able to go out if I need to. I don't want to rely on other people. It's been since the day after Christmas. Enough is enough. I don't like getting 3 hrs less of sleep because I have to wait at work to be picked up then get up early to pick Jake up.

I'm very glad Jake wasn't hurt in his car accident last Friday. I'm also glad the car wasn't totalled. Not real thrilled that insurance can't get in contact with the driver (since it was HIS fault) so we can get the ball rolling on repairs.

I can't believe the little boys are 6 months.

Did I mention I'm tired.

Do Mom's get a day off?

Hmmm.

My Heartache

I don't think that there has ever been a time where I haven't had the desire to be a mother. Ever since my first hand-me-down dolly I have desired to play the part of "little Mommy". I L-O-V-E-D to play house and always looked forward to the day I would have my own children. In fact my initial goal of becoming a pediatrician was easily changed when a conversation with my female primary care physician swayed me from the profession because it was so very hard to hard to have a "normal" family life with children. I then turned my eyes to nursing where I could still help people that were "sick" but in a slightly different way. At the time I never dreamed I would become involved in the NICU working with patients that sometimes weigh less than a sack of Big Macs. Oddly enough, the very first baby doll I remember receiving as a gift was a "preemie" Cabbage Patch Kid. Ironic, huh? Nursing has become a large part of my life. When I first started working in the NICU 10 years ago a nurse told me I would never be able to work somewhere else again. She was right...partially. While I haven't actually worked elsewhere, the only other potential areas of interest all involve the babies...labor & delivery and postpartum. Now, however, when I think of myself I don't really care to view myself as a nurse anymore. I have such a strong desire to be at home with my family that I sometimes wish I had never went to school to become a nurse in the first place. My desire goes back to when I was a child, pretending to go grocery shopping, making dinner, and caring for my "lil babies". I want to be the little domestic wife making homemade bread, using cloth diapers, and planning a slew of educational and fun activities for my boys. I see how fast my boys are growing and am sooo sad that I cannot be home to witness all of their new milestones. When I'm at work I miss hearing Jake and Elijah play cars on the floor and hearing Noah and Jonah's constant baby babbles and bubble blowing. Evening is often a difficult time as the little boys tend to be fussy and need a lot of care and Elijah wants someone's undivided attention. Our days are so jam packed from going from one baby to the other and then the toddler and the laundry and the dishes that often Jake and I just sit on the couch staring at the television after hours of who-knows-what just happened because I think quite frankly we otherwise may go insane. It is hard to find time for the two of us together...and then subtract three days. Three days that I am gone for 12 hrs not including drive time and having to sleep at off times of the day. Add to this the stress of the job itself...augh! I actually just stepped down from team leading. Too much stress in my life! I want tto just go to work and tke care of my own assignment and not always have to deal with problems. If only I could be a SAHM!